Interdependance in a state of independance is possible but for those who has not dared being independant...?interdependance was something i dreamt of before attaining necessary independance.
Now i feel like byuilding myself alone,so i undertook a sanyasa last two three weeks, now slowly back to everyone, ready to communicate. So what is that i felt just before hte sanyasam:
I'm caught in the web of people who know me.
"the knowable individual has been the individual caught in relations of power, as that creature who is to be trained, corrected, supervised, controlled"
It irritates me.
It drains me.
So this is where i began, then a certain introspection:
I dont know how i'm with others. I use power over them who positions themselves "helpless" and seek guidance? is it exercise of power? So how to treat a person when she/he seems to lose way?
How all i survived those phases of chaos when all i knew was i want freedom...?
I positioned myself inferior to somebody in whom i had trust. i had adapted a child pose and then sought protection....and when i have to shange it and break free...ok than i need to undergo certain moments of silence and recreation, so so and so...
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Power is an omnipresent commodity. When one wields power he/she is in essence trying to fit this omnipresent commodity into a structure that he/she has defined to meet/satisfy his/her comments.Even the process of attaining independence can hence be interpreted as a bizare kind of power relation in which the only subject present is the self. To fit this self into a structure which we rather cunningly term as freedom we try to attain a satate of independence. When in a relationship, one strategically assumes an inferior position he/she is also wielding power in a wickedly manipulative way where the structure he/ she wants to fit in is one of being visibly protected. But this a trap because in the very process of unambiguosly assuming the inferior position, all the inherent insecurities has already been done away with theryby reducing the status of inferior as strictly terminological.
I agree all points except one which i would agree if the word freedom be modified as.. i would quote Atwood in saying there should be as many words as eskimos have for "snow" for us to describe "freedom"(Atwwod said it of love) "To fit this self into a structure which we rather cunningly term as freedom we try to attain a satate of independence."
This is not the only freedom...
I agree all points except one which i would agree if the word freedom be modified as.. i would quote Atwood in saying there should be as many words as eskimos have for "snow" for us to describe "freedom"(Atwwod said it of love) "To fit this self into a structure which we rather cunningly term as freedom we try to attain a satate of independence."
This is not the only freedom...
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