Dealing with....

So what has been tough for me as a feminist?
One thing is
BEing with someone who loves you
and ofcourse,
you love too...especially when it's a male
and feminist tooo.
There r moments of self respect when you r in love
but as much contempt when you seek to be in love
and fails
and finds fault with the other.

As this goes
between decisions to be alone to be together
to be together by lonliness
to be different and in different locations...
as it goes...like a game

i observe
and reflect my actions:
you hide behind the walls
looks whether(oh i detest it)
he is there
you seek him
if you r obstinate you find him there
wherever you want
with approving eyes.

It is touching
finding yourself in love
but as much tough to be detached adding to love.