growth

Growth is many sided.
My focus has been on emotion.
By choice or chance, not sure.

Anyways its almost fulfilled now.

I feel and am balanced, that's it, that's enough.

finally i got rid of the obsession about my son, sister and mom..am quoting an earlier blog post.:

(Married to:
My marriage
will have ceremony.
My mother will accompany me
till the earth(with a wreath?)
She will lend me to the earth's cradle
slowly to be degenerated and might murmer
"come back"
I must be happy
to die atleast once for her
coz, I never died in life(for anyone).
never married.
My mother will have a chance
to leave me
to lose me as she ever dreamt, to say she's got her daughter married to.)

But i got married some months back..
And am harmonious with life.
No more such fears of losing myself and self in marriage /relationship.

I am grown up to manage them.
and to have pleasures and pains
not being stuck as pain.



Finally i feel free and back to me or as just born free... quite accidentally today is my birthday..

Read two favorite authors..Atwood and Lessing.